Its calling……. the truth… just for you….

Theres a certain hold people have over you, for different reasons where you want acceptance, acknowledgement or love. Whatever it may be, its a hold. For a long time someone has had a hold over me, and now its completely gone. They had a hold over me for how low they made me feel, for how powerful and sly they needed to be, and how sleazy they were. Multiple girls had been victim to this guy, he likes the power, the power to get them to expose their bodies, its a sick ego thing. Its a disrespectful thing, to both himself and whatever girls he uses. The girls i feel a bit sorry for as they buy into him wanting them or desiring them, but really its quite sad, because he really do. He needs to have self validation from these weak girls, to make himself feel some what whole. He needs constant attention like a child, any anyone will do.  I have witnessed this first hand being his partner for two and a half years, first it was his ex, who he was cheating on me with, alongside multiple other girls. Sext texting having explicit pictures sent to him, and sending them also. Flirting and being a general sleaze, i look now and i am repulsed. Seriously i feel sick i ever loved a person like this. But when i found out i was devastated, thinking there was something wrong with me, I was hurt and i was angry but most of all i questioned myself. Although he also put so much of the blame on me, and made me think i was paranoid, i was insecure, well when you constantly flirt and expose yourself and get girls to expose themselves to you, that kind of makes any person cautious and insecure. But this human claims to have a soul, A soul is something you treasure, as much as who you give your body too. See the utterly sad thing is i was insecure and i was manipulated and i was used, essentially. Anxiety and questions bubbled inside, and he would always lie, however he was so bad at it. But he couldn’t help himself, he is a disgusting person. He would lie and say he wasn’t doing anything when a look through his phone, would say otherwise. He got worse however when he started working away as he was able to lead a double life again. Its amazing how none of his exes say anything nice about him, i wonder why. No, no, I know why. The last one got a lucky escape, however I admire the fact she fucked him over beautifully too. He would say that he only done what he done because of what she was doing, but he still done it when he had a loyal girl by his side. SO truth is he will excuse himself every time, a compulsive liar and delusional sleaze.

The one thing i know, Is that as i write this happy he is now no longer a part of my life, and now i actually see him for the repulsive, vile person he is… not what he pretends to be. I know that he’s probably having sex conversation, a sleazy video skype chat, or audio (as he’s knocked it up and even more sleazier level, that even i didn’t think was possible.) I am sat here with complete peace of mind. That i have finally done the right thing. I have finally left, and would never ever, ever go back. Why would anyone go back to a manipulative, compulsive liar and cheat, who had no self respect, or respect for the person he claimed to love. What type of person is that? Is that even human? I have peace of mind that i am healing my soul and heat and mind, by actually taking time out to love myself and respect myself again. He is probably, no, he is doing what he always does, trawling facebook (thats his fav) or some pathetic dating website, looking for easy girls. He normally goes for the chubby ones or the ones that aren’t that pretty or smart. Thats not me being nasty, its me being truthful, because they are just as grateful for the attention as he is really. He wants the ego trip of power, and a wank, some free sleazy interactive porn and a girl to give him attention. And the girl who is insecure wants to think that it will probably lead to something more. Its sad to think he doesn’t even care for these girls, but then he didn’t care for me so not surprising.

Whatever he is, he is not respectable, decent, or worthy of a good clean and kind hearted partner. And he will never get one, as he knows who he is, and deep down he knows he isn’t worthy. But he will delusional tell you different, he’s amazing in his opinion. And has a soul, LMAO, clearly he’s mistaking his shadow for a soul. Best part is he is the majority of alot of boys of this generation. I would call myself a victim, but i’am not as I walked away. Well you kind of have too, when he’s asleep in your bed messaging other girls he’s been sleazy and skyping with, and then says he refuses to stop talking to them. But I am suppose to be ok with that? yeah? because any normal person would be? SO i said ‘Fine i’m done” He walked out and then he said to me, “hey for what its worth i didn’t mean for it to end this way x”  what way is that me finding out you were a lying cheating cunt again. Yeah me neither….. i ignored the text and changed my number immediately.  And i remember him saying to me if ‘I’ ever slag him off on social media he never ever will speak to me again. HAHAHAHAHAHA (he hates people think bad of him, because then they cant eat his side of the story as well as they could, i mean his lies) So for whatever it is worth i hope he is reading this, as i have every reason to tell the truth!!! I started a relationship back in 2013 with a fucked up guy who dragged me into his games with his ex of cheating and lying, and i found out, he begged me to take him back i did. I found out about other girls and i stayed. Every time he went back to her or deceived me i fucked him off, i even started seeing someone else. But he was a great stalker, the best actually. But with his temper he ended up having a little holiday. When he come out I got back with him, (stupidly) Now through all this with his lies for two years, he wonders why i do not trust him, that i accused him of things when he wasnt doing anything. Nope my darling when i did accuse you, i knew you were, you just didnt know i knew. Idiot. I knew more than he thought i did so he would still lie, thinking i didnt know. Literally a coward of any form of truth. And then in five months he thinks he can repair the damage he done in two years. I told you he was delusional. Anyway more to the point of this, Yes I ruined his life, and yes he ended up in prison because i put him there. I ruined his life as he kept coming into mine begging pleading even pretending to overdose once. And then he would fuck me over or around, and when i lashed back he didn’t like it. He can give it out but he cant take it. Coward. SO yes i happily put him in prison his temper was disgusting, his attitude stunk he though he was invincible, and more to the point he was a lying manipulative fucker who was hurting, using, and abusing people emotionally and mentally. And he knew the consequences he fuck me over i do it to him, i think if you ask him about the arrest he will even tell you he’s lost count of the times he got arrested. Which basically gives you a idea of the amount of times he fucked me over. So yes i admit i ruined his life a few times, i admit i dont trust the cunt and i also admit i stayed too long and gave him more charity than he deserved. I also admit that i wouldn’t of started the games if he had not dragged me in, I wouldn’t of lashed out if i weren’t hurt, or angry. So before he reads to the bottom of this which i am hoping he will….. push as much blame as you can on me, as much as you can as i know it must be vile to live, being you. So if it helps you slander me, But don’t lie, as I haven’t once on here. And you have no idea of the things i can produce to back up those little things you claim to know so well, FACTS. LMAO. So yeah after all you put me through, no im not playing the victim at all, What i am doing is giving my side before you brand me a stalker, or a girl you once when on a date with, LMAO! I am outing you on public media for the person you are, and what you do, and how pathetically sleazy and disgusting you are. And if your threat of never speaking to me again was soemthing you meant, then i win. As i never ever want to speak to a sleazy, cheating, lying, manipulative issue riddled, delusional, CUNT like you again. So make sure you keep to your word, and do me a favour test me, and i will ensure I actually name you, and i have enough screenshots of your sleazy ways, to any girl, woman, mother, or sister or whatever i feel like. So contemplate the whole two graves thing darling, as my mother always said to me.

Never hit someone first, ever, but if they hit you, make sure you hit them back and leave a fucking mark. So they learn they get back what they give out and will think twice. You however didnt learn your lesson from the past clearly, as you are still behaving like a sleazy coward. So …………………. You took the first hit all the time, and you done it again… you never learn, pathetic creep. Now I am free and I anit even bitter, i just pity you and the skets of girls you abuse really, and manipulate. I bet your mum would be proud of the BASTARD she raised. Now fuck off with your selfish needy sexual issues and grow the fuck up. Or jack up. As I have completely let you go….. I never ever want to even see you face or heard your name again.

And this photo is me releasing all the shit, all the insecurities and the complex and bullshit you gave me, before you killed me yet again, you are person who sucks the good out of someone and leaves them with nothing but bad…..killing their hearts and souls slowly, just because you dont have any of your own

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